Living by your own

I remembered that when I was kid,10, I always thought my parents always support myself until I am old enough. yet, this view was just the dream because when I have grown up and become adult. My father died since I was 10-year. My view started changing from then; I do not know what happened in my intrinsic, or maybe it was my fate ? I am sure that when my father had gone, gone forever and I will never ever have chance to meet him again. Yeah, he had gone . So only mother and others six siblings living in the family under mother's support. How was everything goes on, my mother is a bit old and she had no education since Khmer Rough, during this region many people did not get enough education and most people were killed, and the family lives in the isolated village in the rural and what could my family does to support the condition of living ? my elder sister was just the factory worker, my second brother was just grade 8 or 9, third sister was just grade 7, my fourth brother was grade 5 , my youngest sister was grade 2 and I was grade 3. So only my elder sister who could earn little money to support the family and mother just had a small vegetable farm which could earn  at most 100 000 Riel=25$.  These are the reasons that I thought I have to move a way from home, far from home to pursue my study. I asked for my cousin family who live in Phnom Penh. Yeah to live with, surprisingly, they approved me to live with them. This, I  had been changed my view, changed my view because I am away from family to live a lone. And It's time to live by my own. The feeling when kid is away from the whole family, could you imagine what do you feel to that kid's feel?